Can I just say it? Chemo prepped me for Covid-19 and social distancing. 

I’m scared to go outside without a mask.

I’m not allowed outdoors.

I’ve been ordering random things in the mail and groceries because I cannot go to the store.

I don’t even know if I have “real” clothes anymore because I’m only wearing sweats and a t-shirt every day.

I changed my hair.

I’m getting tired of t.v. shows.

I’m not permitted to go to work.

I just want to be productive.

My family is obsessed with hand sanitizer and masks again.

Everyone is looking at me as if I’m sick or dying.

I’m constantly reminded that I have a pre-existing condition.

I’m feeling trapped and scared.

It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Some days – hope that it’ll be better is all I have.

I keep praying.