Can I just say it? Chemo prepped me for Covid-19 and social distancing.
I’m scared to go outside without a mask.
I’m not allowed outdoors.
I’ve been ordering random things in the mail and groceries because I cannot go to the store.
I don’t even know if I have “real” clothes anymore because I’m only wearing sweats and a t-shirt every day.
I changed my hair.
I’m getting tired of t.v. shows.
I’m not permitted to go to work.
I just want to be productive.
My family is obsessed with hand sanitizer and masks again.
Everyone is looking at me as if I’m sick or dying.
I’m constantly reminded that I have a pre-existing condition.
I’m feeling trapped and scared.
It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Some days – hope that it’ll be better is all I have.
I keep praying.